keep the faith

the saddist.

ok. im depressed... and i wonder why myself too.bad huh. >_< but yea. thats how it is. life is just plan suck.had a bad start. waited to 55min to board a bus. despite ggetting to the bus stop early.. like 745.. -.- and i was still late. -.- well oh well. idk how many buses i have missed. it just suck. and there was this girl cursing and swearing to herself..which was. -.- hahahhaha. :p then reached school and went to print my notes. missed the first lecture. its sad to be alone. but then dang~ have to learn to be independent. i miss hua >_<

the round face.

haha. my face is getting rounder as i snack more and more.must be cos im depressed. >_< i tend to snack more. and now, i can't spend money already. mirotic concert is making me more depress. >_< wahh.i really wanna go!! thats the only thing that i enjoy and that can make me happy now D: BOO
so people, if you ask me out and i can't make it.im sorry! cos i really need to save up for my concert. its a huge sum of money >_<

the worms.

met them today. was supposed to go for the lecture.but missed it since someone was lazy. AHEM... hahhaha :p well oh well.. >_< talked and such..

then went to walk around at tm 1 with suhong. call me noob, that was my first time there after it officially opened. LOL! :p hehehe. but well. nothing much. since i can't spend money anyway. but there was a sol mart and it got me high for awhile. haha. i shall get some ddeokbokki and cook at home when i have the money and time. lol. >_<

hehe. okay thats all folks. getting bored with life.
swine flu and all. its kinda getting on my nerves. especially when i wanna go overseas soon. >_<
dang~
but gahh. dooms day please come after mirotic concert >_<
shall watch it and die a happy girl.

9:09 AM
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heyhey!

ended ssm and BOO HOO. my arms are like killing me D: it seriously hurt until i don't know how to type. as i type, my hands are like dying. >_< i hate hate this. D:

have to practice how to pour wine and hold plates and all. >_< wahh. i wanna die already. i think there are much more to learn and know. and it suck. >_<

today was.. they ask us to hold 2 plates with one hand. and they timed the duration we can hold. from 1min and slowly they increased to 4mins. on top of that. we have to walk around the top table area with the plates in hand, they increased to 3 plates when we were doing so. i swear i wanted to die. -.-
then before that was learning how to pour wine and open wine. >_< my fastest was 21 secs. >_< have to practice more. and i asked my father to let me open wine just for me to practice. LMAO. :p but i think i don't have wine at home. D: boo.

im damm tired. and my arms hurt like mad. and i hate life.
offical dates for concert is out. 27 and 28. OH GOD >_< what a timing is this?? -.- damm irritated. at such timings like this. -.- when i just ended my holidays. how i wish they can push everything forward. then i can go during my holiday. so i don't haev to come up with an excuse to pon school >_< oh god. what a life i have. -.- damm it. all of us are so (@*(*&#@)(@ over it. why can't it be end of the year. BOO.

okay. im seriously tired. and my hands seriously hurt. glad tomorrow i don't have school that early. if not i will seriously curse and swear and try to burn down the school.

nights people!

2:21 AM
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omona. i need my happy pill again. i miss him >_< school is sucky. i hate it like totally >_< omg omg omg omg omg. and i have ssm tomorrow. which does not makes it any better. i have to wake up like 5am tomorrow to prepare and all. wahh. life sucks when you know there are so many things to do.. -.-

had a bad day...

chatted with ying baby and that did made my day a better one. thank you so muchhy~~

oh god. D: i think im turning into a saddist real soon. D: thats just.. BOO.

ok. have to go and sleep really soon too. i think i will just die tomorrow. pray and hope for good luck >_<

my right eye kept twitching and its a bad omen. >_< i hate it. but it can't stop twitching. and it had been like that for the whole day. i wanted to die. >_<

hais. damm damm.
nights people.
i hope dooms day come faster. seems like i can't wait to die. >_< HAHAH!
i really do sound like a saddist now. HAHHA ;p

8:05 AM
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Hee. back from grandma house and had a great great dinner! MWAHHA. i hate crabs, and i think i ate lots of it. hehehe :p

then before dinner, went to ikea. got myself a small 'study' table.


hehe. hope i really study with it. HEHE. :p i would love to revamp my room when i have time. and the key word is WHEN I HAVE TIME.. which ususally i don't. and im not even studying. omg. i think i have to like study hard in order to repay my parents. i know they all dote on me. but then im like not doing much in return. its weird. like how you live not for yourself but for others. but then on the other hand, give and take. so since i receive i should give too right. like first step is to study hard. haha. to earn a better income. >_< MONEY IS EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF. hahhaha :P I WANT MONEY! MONEY MONEY MONEY! i will buy a big big house for my family and then escape to korea. hahaha :p

anyway.. life oh life.. im OFFICIALLY starting school tomorrow. BOO! yea. it sucks. but i have to live with it. the most i have to be more hardworking a bit. hahaha. :p and ssm is coming again. BOO BOO BOO. hais. suck >_< i have not got my black rubber band and my contact lens. D: DANG~

SHE IS SO PRETTY IM DEAD JEALOUS.


song:Peace love & ice cream
It was peace, love and ice cream
Flowers and tambourines
Butterflies high
In the clear blue sky
And the summer breeze
And we knew how to breath
Freedom

With tears full of laughter
happy ever afters
and stories to tell
oh, we told them so well
in the glow of the fire
we sang the songs
of freedom

It’s time to relive all the memories
Catch every day in a frame

Sing with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back in time
Just for a minute to 69
Come sing along with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back again
We’re praying this time it will never end
Come sing along with me

how i wish i can live life the way i want it to be. enjoy doing all the things that i like. with no worries. live a simple life that is not so complicated.

i wanna sing again >_< hehehe.
but my bank is like.. -.- I HATE MONEY!

dear lovely baby girl. lets all be happy no matter how ugly this world can be! :) hehe. dump everything together with my shit and flush it away.

6:48 AM
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Place we have been to that day.(thursday)


Meeting up before the event.





JUMP YAY!!

Blow your candle and make a wish!

Birthday 'cake'







HAHAH! huizhen.. -.- HAHA










FREEZE YO!


Self-highing

LOL!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUIYI


Had a birthday celebration for huiyi on her birthday. and then went to esplanade there to sing her a birthdya song.it was for jing's belated, but she was not there. >_< BOO. then went to eat and then went to take photos and played for awhile. danced as well. -.- it was quite.. hahahahha. :p but fun. LOL.

enjoyed myself. HEE.

today. went to school early morning cos cindy's father gave us a ride. >_< that girl accompany me to print my notes and all. exchanged a bit about each other's life. and then went our separate ways. OMO. tired. >_< had lesson. and i didnt realise that moses was in my class. HAHA. :p and lesley too. -.- ok.. and then.. well oh well... school.. haha.

and here comes the fun part!! HEHE! met jing for lunch and she told me bout her korea trip. >_< *envious* hehe. then we went singing... hehehe THATS THE BEST PART. HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY.. SING SING AND SING! i sang for 4 hours. YAY! love it. with qi and jing. hehe. and all the korean songs. i need more singing sessions with them. >_< makes my day a better one.LOL. :P aww

then went home.hehe.

ok. im damm tired... hehe
nights people!
:D

5:55 AM
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HUR HUR! changed my skin to cinnamon :) cute right ;p

stayed home today. tired. and my arms are killing me.

D: depressing. life is boring.. but it still goes on. boo.

jing is confirmed going to korea already. so dead jealous. >_< aww. *envious* no news of thailand mirotic yet and that is killing me. D:

that should be all for today. there would be school tomorrow. BOO x 2. haha. :p byee.

1:02 AM
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i miss my baby so much D:

my happy pill again. i think i will need him like everyday. he should just marry me.

today suck. it just suck.
was late for ssm. forgot about my make up and have to go back home for it. it fucking rained early in the morning. and my umbrella was of no fucking use cos of the damm wind. then bus was fucking packed cos i forgot there were secondary school students as well. overestimated myself that im able to reach there on time.

then went to school to change and all. reached about a bit later than 8. cos there was this locker room that we have to go and lock our bags. followed this group of girls when i reached. then went to put my bags and went up to assemble. and i was BLOODY LATE.. and to think that that was the end. im so wrong.

late and got screamed at. then suddenly i can't remember to tie a tie. hur. what a joke. then i left my matrix card and note book and pen and name tag in my bag cos i was in a rush. then i was caught for my contact lens. cos it was coloured. and i was screamed at again. he was like 5cm from my face.

then have to join the others cos the late comers were separated. and my hair was in a mess too. then have to queue for a check on grooming. wah. worse is that.. he spent damm a lot of time asking why we were late. and kept screaming..

need stocking which i don't know that i need. then my rubber band was pink and i was scolded at again.how great. i bet the teacher will remember me since i broke 2 rules. then i did photocopy my typhiod cert which i have to get it done by lunch time. then my tie was caught but the tie was my last year's care teacher who helped me with it. then it was not ok. -.- then someone else helped me instead. then i didn't bring money along with me. which was needed to pay for the wine opener. i borrowed from wenhao. thank god at least there was people who can help me. and jingwei too. i kept sms-ing him about ssm and all. >_<

it suck when there was no one to help you. and i have NO friends at all there. some i knew through public speaking and japanese. but both never talk to be. damm dao. -.- and those whom i made friends with were not even from my class. there was this GC girl that i met there. glad that she is friendly. if not i would have died. and this guan yi girl who is also very nicee. the rest are like.. idk. like not my type of friend. and i still don't really see much of 04 people. or thats all that i have seen? omg. damm sian. life sucks

and they showed us around the place and we had to like take down notes and all. it was a lot of information within a day. glad that botak jones did help me abit. lol. then have to remember quite an amount of information. D: then my break was liek 15min. and i have to rush to get my cert printed. walking around the school with that ssm shirt was not that glam. and on top of that. damm my heels. its killing me. and i stood there through the whole 8am-3 plus pm cos we ended early. then straight after that i had to work. what a great day. i did not expect ssm to be this tough.

so the training for today was carrying BRICKS ON A TRAY.. and you have to carry it with your shoulders. -.- how fun huh. and i could carry 6 and i think most girls in my group could. after this, i think i have no problems working in construction sites.. and balancing filled water bottles on a tray walking up and down the stairs. this is like totally physical training. -.- my left hand is dead by now. cos we were all supposed to use left hand. i think i have blue black on my shoulders cos it kinda hurts now.

finally back home and have to pass suhong her uniform. so have to wait until she reach rm. passed her and went off.

damm tired that i want to die now.
what a bad day. D:
i kinda hate school now. no i hated it from the start actually. what a pathetic life i have. and i don't want to depend on other people anymore. cos that sucks.
goodnight people. how i wish that i can just sleep and never wake up.
ssm was not bad other than the scolding and walking in heels the whole day without sitting and having a break that you don't even have time to queue for food.
thats all folks. not going to school tomorrow. bbye.

8:05 AM
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i want my happy pill to sing me to sleep. i need him so much >_<

tomorrow is going to be a damm long day. im having ssm(killer 'attachment') and work right after.

went to crash my clique's lecture today. damm. i feel the sian-ness alreay. cos im all alone in ssm lect today. -.- damm bored. but the Mr goh or something. i think he is damm damm funny. haha. but when he is serious i believe its deadly. >_< omg man.

no apel tutorial for me on wednesday. hehe. then i think im gonna skip my lecture as well. YAY! so for now, i think im free on both wednesday and friday.

tomorrow is dead dead dead dead dead dead dead. >_< well oh well... something that i have to face.
bought shoes and all already. so i think i should be ok. what else??? still have to check ole. wahh. i wanna die alr. there seem to be so many things to bring >_<
should i just wear my uniform there tomorrow? since early in the morning. no one will ssee me. hahaha :p

D: im tired...
bye people.
i miss my happy pill >_<
and i wanna sing real soon.

7:30 AM
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went drinking with them last night as a gathering before school starts. and yupp. it was a fucking warm day. with 36 degrees which is almost = body temperature. -.- internally and externally the same temperature. i thought i almost wanted to die and i was wearing my banc hood since i thought it would be cold at night. windy at least. -.- but nothing like that. then we went to fort canoning(?) park or something and sat there to drink. misfortunate things happened. and i was so angry with myself that i can't do anything to help. its like.. if at least i know taekwondo i can help to a certain extend. but boo. im useless. and therefore it just happened right infront of me. what a way to end my holidays. -.- hope they are better now.

i fucking don't understand what is wrong with people these days. can you? i mean.. its like.. why are there damm super a lot of weird people around that i totally don't understand what they are thinking? they don't live like a normal human being. super pathetic. they pick on people who are weaker than them or at people who can't/don't want to fight back. so what the fuck is this?if you think you are THAT GOOD. pick on someone your size. i think this is how humans work. they like to see other people's misery. sick people, yes. and those people who likes to steal other people's things FUCK OFF MAN. wait till your hands drop off. or you wake up the next morning and finds out that you have no more fingers left. i really hope that there is karma. but from what i see.. its always the good people that suffers.

and last night was a night that made my reflect on things and myself and life and all.. talked to suhong about this and that.. and omg. can't believe i won't have time to talk to her once our school starts. as in.. i think it would be harder.. >_< thatss bad.. since i don't know much of fangirls around me. but damm it. thats just bad enough.

people come in and out of my life and i wonder who stayed. cherish is what people always say. but even for me. i don't even really know what is that for now. i still have to much to learn.

im tired...
of life
of where i am
of what people do
of what people say
of how the world works
of how some people just sucks but still have friends on their side
of how there are things that i just couldn't do
of how i want things that i can't have
of how reality is cruel
of my future
of myself
of words speaks louder than actions
of many many things

there are so many things to think about.
goodnight people.
school is starting tomrrow and it just suck.
no more freedom and its time for books.
i wish that im a book worm.. but then the thing is that im just a lazy worm.. -..- and a fat one too. -.-

6:41 AM
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childish i know. but hey! im young! hahhahahha :p

some photos of yesterday. at bugis the new mall.and the arcade there SUCKS. haha :p LMAO :p but went there for a movie and it was not that bad. LOL. hehe.and the new mall like nothing much. all those expensive things. -.-

hehe.meeting my hua for lunch later.hurhur. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

8:46 PM
♥

ok people that i went out with today.. LOL.

was nice meeting shuqing(?) lol. she is a dancer and she can do hand stand. super impress. they should just teach me dancing. hahaha :P

i have a sucky timetable. and i wonder why.. >_<
BOO HOO.

okay! had a great day with those people. went to eat KOREAN buffet. HEHEHE. steamboat and bulgoki. :p then went to haji lane. they went for sheesha so i just sat there and rot. and talk.. and rot more...

then went to catch mid night movie and now im finally BACK! hehehe. :D

goodnight people. pretty tired. YAY to end of presentation and BOO to starting of year 2 >_<.

BYEE~

11:13 AM
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Im in a new class and no one is with me... 2H04. i need my happy pill D:
depressing

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for now.. no one is in the same class as me...

depressing...

6:56 AM
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im tired now. but have to finish up on the video before i sleep. >_<

okay! so today was quite ok with hua visiting me around noon. HEE. she brought my volka over. thanks girl for helping me get it. and i talked to her for about 45min before i left for school. but damm it >_< 45min was too short. sorry that i kept blabbering about myself. lol. :p shall have a longer time chatting with you next time. :D

then went to school and did part of our video and had a rehearsal for our presentation tomorrow. i was the fastest. LMAO. HEHE. but i spoke to fast. so i will try to slow down. LOL! then then then... rehearsal ended. hee

went to cut hair with zt. i have short and black hair now!

X_X and the hair dresser asked why would i not cry when i have this kind of hair. then i say.. im used to it already. -.- hahahhaha

omg. okay! damm tired which i don't know why. did nothing much too. blah.

nights! :)

5:12 AM
♥

I have decided that junsu a day keeps my troubles away. :D

ok. boo hoo. have to finish up on editing project. then then then..have to dye my hair black by this week.hope my mom is going to pay for it. then buy shoes. dang~ prepare for school reopen. >_< suck. suck. suck. when it suck and you just know it and can't do anything about it. >_< i hate this.

anyway.. jing is ending her exams in another 7 days??OMG i wanna sing with her. hehe.GOOKLUCK TO YOU OKAY! AND JAYCE! :p then then then.. so many things to do. >_< dang~

hmm. then then then.... presentation this coming thursday.
meeting up in the afternoon with hua tomorrow.
what else do i have to do? >_<

ok. shall not think for now.
goodnight people! :D

8:08 AM
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I need my happy pill to get me going.. >_<

ANNYEONG!!! >_< school is starting real soon and i HATE IT!

had project meeting today. and went to school to get the uniform. it was damm heavy i wonder whyy. But having to see the uniform, i felt kinda... sian already.. >_< school is starting next week. I'm feeling damm sucky now.. like serious. THIS SUCKS. X_X dang~

okay! then... went to sit in for the presentation. and guess what. i forgot that i had work until zengting asked me. and i was like. OMG. what day is it today?? -.- well oh well... i tend to be really forgetful these dayss. >_< and i wonder whyy. is there anything that helps with memory or helps my brain?

okay! im tired. but have project to do. dang~
goodnight people. D:

8:06 AM
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HEHE! my another soulmate is back in SG.. AWWWWW~~ I MISSED HER SO MUCH! YOU BETTER MEET ME UP JIAHUA!!!!

8:37 AM
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Back from staying over at qi's place. HUR HUR. her house is damm big and damm cool. >_<

I HATE MY STUPIDITY OR WAS IT JUST MY SENSE OF DIRECTION?

Cooking was done by qi, ying, me and jayce did her cheese cake(which was.. ediable to a certain extend. HAHAH :P) dinner was supposed to start at 7pm and we started late. and so.. we end up having supper instead. haha.

We watched movie at night and then chatted and slept at 4am. hahaha. then when we woke up. we chatted again and went to have brunch. LMAO. i think its forever fun talking to fangirls. its like.. seriously. haha. then as usual we talked about our love life and such.. and its quite sad talking bout it. lmao. but gahh~ i think im happy just with JUNSU. hehe.

then i went to my ah ma house. and slept.. cos i realised i don't have my lap top and on top of that it was quite boring..hahaha. :p but i was glad that i could make it from qi's house to my grandma house with the limited sense of direction that i have.. haha. :p

celebrated jing and kelly's birthday! HAHA. :p HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) lol.

okay! thats all for my weekends. i have not done my project yet damm sian..
BYE!

6:20 AM
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Desperately searching but could never be found. Is that how my life would be?

AYE~ another day.. hahha.

7:24 AM
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how much i love him and can't get him. reasons that i only know. i wanna dive into my junsu la-la land and never come up again. i hate reality. i hate the place where im living now and i want a change. a big big change.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5eoljSI5G8
this video is KIM BUM AND KIM SO EUN(GAEUL) wahh so damm cutee i died.

almost went jogging this afternoon with my soulmate. I shall put cindy under my soulmate section. HAHAH :p but then after 30min of warm up(in our individual house) cindy can't make it. hahahhaa. cos she was feeling weak. so we did not run. but in the end i was trying damm hard hopping and jumping around trying to learn eat you up. haha. its damm difficult.-.- i want to die already. but the dance is so so so niceee. how i wish i have some basics at the back of my hands where i can use it as and when i want. there are a lot of wants. but i can't seem to have them all. >_< why is life so difficult?

did not go for beijing clique meeting. super sorry. >_<

okay! thats all for today. :) hur hur.
goodbyeeee people.

5:05 AM
♥

Project meeting today. BOO HOO! >_<

okay. so basically was project meeting and then i went to bank in my money on my way home..
and then i went back home to slack and fangirl a bit.
and then i went out again to hand up some feess.
and then when i reach home i went jogging.
and then i watch tv
and then i bathe
and then i am here typing away.

okay! thats for the day.
bye people! :)
goodnight!

8:43 AM
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the saddist.

ok. im depressed... and i wonder why myself too.bad huh. >_< but yea. thats how it is. life is just plan suck.had a bad start. waited to 55min to board a bus. despite ggetting to the bus stop early.. like 745.. -.- and i was still late. -.- well oh well. idk how many buses i have missed. it just suck. and there was this girl cursing and swearing to herself..which was. -.- hahahhaha. :p then reached school and went to print my notes. missed the first lecture. its sad to be alone. but then dang~ have to learn to be independent. i miss hua >_<

the round face.

haha. my face is getting rounder as i snack more and more.must be cos im depressed. >_< i tend to snack more. and now, i can't spend money already. mirotic concert is making me more depress. >_< wahh.i really wanna go!! thats the only thing that i enjoy and that can make me happy now D: BOO
so people, if you ask me out and i can't make it.im sorry! cos i really need to save up for my concert. its a huge sum of money >_<

the worms.

met them today. was supposed to go for the lecture.but missed it since someone was lazy. AHEM... hahhaha :p well oh well.. >_< talked and such..

then went to walk around at tm 1 with suhong. call me noob, that was my first time there after it officially opened. LOL! :p hehehe. but well. nothing much. since i can't spend money anyway. but there was a sol mart and it got me high for awhile. haha. i shall get some ddeokbokki and cook at home when i have the money and time. lol. >_<

hehe. okay thats all folks. getting bored with life.
swine flu and all. its kinda getting on my nerves. especially when i wanna go overseas soon. >_<
dang~
but gahh. dooms day please come after mirotic concert >_<
shall watch it and die a happy girl.

9:09 AM
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heyhey!

ended ssm and BOO HOO. my arms are like killing me D: it seriously hurt until i don't know how to type. as i type, my hands are like dying. >_< i hate hate this. D:

have to practice how to pour wine and hold plates and all. >_< wahh. i wanna die already. i think there are much more to learn and know. and it suck. >_<

today was.. they ask us to hold 2 plates with one hand. and they timed the duration we can hold. from 1min and slowly they increased to 4mins. on top of that. we have to walk around the top table area with the plates in hand, they increased to 3 plates when we were doing so. i swear i wanted to die. -.-
then before that was learning how to pour wine and open wine. >_< my fastest was 21 secs. >_< have to practice more. and i asked my father to let me open wine just for me to practice. LMAO. :p but i think i don't have wine at home. D: boo.

im damm tired. and my arms hurt like mad. and i hate life.
offical dates for concert is out. 27 and 28. OH GOD >_< what a timing is this?? -.- damm irritated. at such timings like this. -.- when i just ended my holidays. how i wish they can push everything forward. then i can go during my holiday. so i don't haev to come up with an excuse to pon school >_< oh god. what a life i have. -.- damm it. all of us are so (@*(*&#@)(@ over it. why can't it be end of the year. BOO.

okay. im seriously tired. and my hands seriously hurt. glad tomorrow i don't have school that early. if not i will seriously curse and swear and try to burn down the school.

nights people!

2:21 AM
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omona. i need my happy pill again. i miss him >_< school is sucky. i hate it like totally >_< omg omg omg omg omg. and i have ssm tomorrow. which does not makes it any better. i have to wake up like 5am tomorrow to prepare and all. wahh. life sucks when you know there are so many things to do.. -.-

had a bad day...

chatted with ying baby and that did made my day a better one. thank you so muchhy~~

oh god. D: i think im turning into a saddist real soon. D: thats just.. BOO.

ok. have to go and sleep really soon too. i think i will just die tomorrow. pray and hope for good luck >_<

my right eye kept twitching and its a bad omen. >_< i hate it. but it can't stop twitching. and it had been like that for the whole day. i wanted to die. >_<

hais. damm damm.
nights people.
i hope dooms day come faster. seems like i can't wait to die. >_< HAHAH!
i really do sound like a saddist now. HAHHA ;p

8:05 AM
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Hee. back from grandma house and had a great great dinner! MWAHHA. i hate crabs, and i think i ate lots of it. hehehe :p

then before dinner, went to ikea. got myself a small 'study' table.


hehe. hope i really study with it. HEHE. :p i would love to revamp my room when i have time. and the key word is WHEN I HAVE TIME.. which ususally i don't. and im not even studying. omg. i think i have to like study hard in order to repay my parents. i know they all dote on me. but then im like not doing much in return. its weird. like how you live not for yourself but for others. but then on the other hand, give and take. so since i receive i should give too right. like first step is to study hard. haha. to earn a better income. >_< MONEY IS EVERYTHING I CAN THINK OF. hahhaha :P I WANT MONEY! MONEY MONEY MONEY! i will buy a big big house for my family and then escape to korea. hahaha :p

anyway.. life oh life.. im OFFICIALLY starting school tomorrow. BOO! yea. it sucks. but i have to live with it. the most i have to be more hardworking a bit. hahaha. :p and ssm is coming again. BOO BOO BOO. hais. suck >_< i have not got my black rubber band and my contact lens. D: DANG~

SHE IS SO PRETTY IM DEAD JEALOUS.


song:Peace love & ice cream
It was peace, love and ice cream
Flowers and tambourines
Butterflies high
In the clear blue sky
And the summer breeze
And we knew how to breath
Freedom

With tears full of laughter
happy ever afters
and stories to tell
oh, we told them so well
in the glow of the fire
we sang the songs
of freedom

It’s time to relive all the memories
Catch every day in a frame

Sing with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back in time
Just for a minute to 69
Come sing along with me
Na na na na na…
Let us go back again
We’re praying this time it will never end
Come sing along with me

how i wish i can live life the way i want it to be. enjoy doing all the things that i like. with no worries. live a simple life that is not so complicated.

i wanna sing again >_< hehehe.
but my bank is like.. -.- I HATE MONEY!

dear lovely baby girl. lets all be happy no matter how ugly this world can be! :) hehe. dump everything together with my shit and flush it away.

6:48 AM
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Place we have been to that day.(thursday)


Meeting up before the event.





JUMP YAY!!

Blow your candle and make a wish!

Birthday 'cake'







HAHAH! huizhen.. -.- HAHA










FREEZE YO!


Self-highing

LOL!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HUIYI


Had a birthday celebration for huiyi on her birthday. and then went to esplanade there to sing her a birthdya song.it was for jing's belated, but she was not there. >_< BOO. then went to eat and then went to take photos and played for awhile. danced as well. -.- it was quite.. hahahahha. :p but fun. LOL.

enjoyed myself. HEE.

today. went to school early morning cos cindy's father gave us a ride. >_< that girl accompany me to print my notes and all. exchanged a bit about each other's life. and then went our separate ways. OMO. tired. >_< had lesson. and i didnt realise that moses was in my class. HAHA. :p and lesley too. -.- ok.. and then.. well oh well... school.. haha.

and here comes the fun part!! HEHE! met jing for lunch and she told me bout her korea trip. >_< *envious* hehe. then we went singing... hehehe THATS THE BEST PART. HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY.. SING SING AND SING! i sang for 4 hours. YAY! love it. with qi and jing. hehe. and all the korean songs. i need more singing sessions with them. >_< makes my day a better one.LOL. :P aww

then went home.hehe.

ok. im damm tired... hehe
nights people!
:D

5:55 AM
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HUR HUR! changed my skin to cinnamon :) cute right ;p

stayed home today. tired. and my arms are killing me.

D: depressing. life is boring.. but it still goes on. boo.

jing is confirmed going to korea already. so dead jealous. >_< aww. *envious* no news of thailand mirotic yet and that is killing me. D:

that should be all for today. there would be school tomorrow. BOO x 2. haha. :p byee.

1:02 AM
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i miss my baby so much D:

my happy pill again. i think i will need him like everyday. he should just marry me.

today suck. it just suck.
was late for ssm. forgot about my make up and have to go back home for it. it fucking rained early in the morning. and my umbrella was of no fucking use cos of the damm wind. then bus was fucking packed cos i forgot there were secondary school students as well. overestimated myself that im able to reach there on time.

then went to school to change and all. reached about a bit later than 8. cos there was this locker room that we have to go and lock our bags. followed this group of girls when i reached. then went to put my bags and went up to assemble. and i was BLOODY LATE.. and to think that that was the end. im so wrong.

late and got screamed at. then suddenly i can't remember to tie a tie. hur. what a joke. then i left my matrix card and note book and pen and name tag in my bag cos i was in a rush. then i was caught for my contact lens. cos it was coloured. and i was screamed at again. he was like 5cm from my face.

then have to join the others cos the late comers were separated. and my hair was in a mess too. then have to queue for a check on grooming. wah. worse is that.. he spent damm a lot of time asking why we were late. and kept screaming..

need stocking which i don't know that i need. then my rubber band was pink and i was scolded at again.how great. i bet the teacher will remember me since i broke 2 rules. then i did photocopy my typhiod cert which i have to get it done by lunch time. then my tie was caught but the tie was my last year's care teacher who helped me with it. then it was not ok. -.- then someone else helped me instead. then i didn't bring money along with me. which was needed to pay for the wine opener. i borrowed from wenhao. thank god at least there was people who can help me. and jingwei too. i kept sms-ing him about ssm and all. >_<

it suck when there was no one to help you. and i have NO friends at all there. some i knew through public speaking and japanese. but both never talk to be. damm dao. -.- and those whom i made friends with were not even from my class. there was this GC girl that i met there. glad that she is friendly. if not i would have died. and this guan yi girl who is also very nicee. the rest are like.. idk. like not my type of friend. and i still don't really see much of 04 people. or thats all that i have seen? omg. damm sian. life sucks

and they showed us around the place and we had to like take down notes and all. it was a lot of information within a day. glad that botak jones did help me abit. lol. then have to remember quite an amount of information. D: then my break was liek 15min. and i have to rush to get my cert printed. walking around the school with that ssm shirt was not that glam. and on top of that. damm my heels. its killing me. and i stood there through the whole 8am-3 plus pm cos we ended early. then straight after that i had to work. what a great day. i did not expect ssm to be this tough.

so the training for today was carrying BRICKS ON A TRAY.. and you have to carry it with your shoulders. -.- how fun huh. and i could carry 6 and i think most girls in my group could. after this, i think i have no problems working in construction sites.. and balancing filled water bottles on a tray walking up and down the stairs. this is like totally physical training. -.- my left hand is dead by now. cos we were all supposed to use left hand. i think i have blue black on my shoulders cos it kinda hurts now.

finally back home and have to pass suhong her uniform. so have to wait until she reach rm. passed her and went off.

damm tired that i want to die now.
what a bad day. D:
i kinda hate school now. no i hated it from the start actually. what a pathetic life i have. and i don't want to depend on other people anymore. cos that sucks.
goodnight people. how i wish that i can just sleep and never wake up.
ssm was not bad other than the scolding and walking in heels the whole day without sitting and having a break that you don't even have time to queue for food.
thats all folks. not going to school tomorrow. bbye.

8:05 AM
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i want my happy pill to sing me to sleep. i need him so much >_<

tomorrow is going to be a damm long day. im having ssm(killer 'attachment') and work right after.

went to crash my clique's lecture today. damm. i feel the sian-ness alreay. cos im all alone in ssm lect today. -.- damm bored. but the Mr goh or something. i think he is damm damm funny. haha. but when he is serious i believe its deadly. >_< omg man.

no apel tutorial for me on wednesday. hehe. then i think im gonna skip my lecture as well. YAY! so for now, i think im free on both wednesday and friday.

tomorrow is dead dead dead dead dead dead dead. >_< well oh well... something that i have to face.
bought shoes and all already. so i think i should be ok. what else??? still have to check ole. wahh. i wanna die alr. there seem to be so many things to bring >_<
should i just wear my uniform there tomorrow? since early in the morning. no one will ssee me. hahaha :p

D: im tired...
bye people.
i miss my happy pill >_<
and i wanna sing real soon.

7:30 AM
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went drinking with them last night as a gathering before school starts. and yupp. it was a fucking warm day. with 36 degrees which is almost = body temperature. -.- internally and externally the same temperature. i thought i almost wanted to die and i was wearing my banc hood since i thought it would be cold at night. windy at least. -.- but nothing like that. then we went to fort canoning(?) park or something and sat there to drink. misfortunate things happened. and i was so angry with myself that i can't do anything to help. its like.. if at least i know taekwondo i can help to a certain extend. but boo. im useless. and therefore it just happened right infront of me. what a way to end my holidays. -.- hope they are better now.

i fucking don't understand what is wrong with people these days. can you? i mean.. its like.. why are there damm super a lot of weird people around that i totally don't understand what they are thinking? they don't live like a normal human being. super pathetic. they pick on people who are weaker than them or at people who can't/don't want to fight back. so what the fuck is this?if you think you are THAT GOOD. pick on someone your size. i think this is how humans work. they like to see other people's misery. sick people, yes. and those people who likes to steal other people's things FUCK OFF MAN. wait till your hands drop off. or you wake up the next morning and finds out that you have no more fingers left. i really hope that there is karma. but from what i see.. its always the good people that suffers.

and last night was a night that made my reflect on things and myself and life and all.. talked to suhong about this and that.. and omg. can't believe i won't have time to talk to her once our school starts. as in.. i think it would be harder.. >_< thatss bad.. since i don't know much of fangirls around me. but damm it. thats just bad enough.

people come in and out of my life and i wonder who stayed. cherish is what people always say. but even for me. i don't even really know what is that for now. i still have to much to learn.

im tired...
of life
of where i am
of what people do
of what people say
of how the world works
of how some people just sucks but still have friends on their side
of how there are things that i just couldn't do
of how i want things that i can't have
of how reality is cruel
of my future
of myself
of words speaks louder than actions
of many many things

there are so many things to think about.
goodnight people.
school is starting tomrrow and it just suck.
no more freedom and its time for books.
i wish that im a book worm.. but then the thing is that im just a lazy worm.. -..- and a fat one too. -.-

6:41 AM
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childish i know. but hey! im young! hahhahahha :p

some photos of yesterday. at bugis the new mall.and the arcade there SUCKS. haha :p LMAO :p but went there for a movie and it was not that bad. LOL. hehe.and the new mall like nothing much. all those expensive things. -.-

hehe.meeting my hua for lunch later.hurhur. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

8:46 PM
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ok people that i went out with today.. LOL.

was nice meeting shuqing(?) lol. she is a dancer and she can do hand stand. super impress. they should just teach me dancing. hahaha :P

i have a sucky timetable. and i wonder why.. >_<
BOO HOO.

okay! had a great day with those people. went to eat KOREAN buffet. HEHEHE. steamboat and bulgoki. :p then went to haji lane. they went for sheesha so i just sat there and rot. and talk.. and rot more...

then went to catch mid night movie and now im finally BACK! hehehe. :D

goodnight people. pretty tired. YAY to end of presentation and BOO to starting of year 2 >_<.

BYEE~

11:13 AM
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Im in a new class and no one is with me... 2H04. i need my happy pill D:
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for now.. no one is in the same class as me...

depressing...

6:56 AM
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im tired now. but have to finish up on the video before i sleep. >_<

okay! so today was quite ok with hua visiting me around noon. HEE. she brought my volka over. thanks girl for helping me get it. and i talked to her for about 45min before i left for school. but damm it >_< 45min was too short. sorry that i kept blabbering about myself. lol. :p shall have a longer time chatting with you next time. :D

then went to school and did part of our video and had a rehearsal for our presentation tomorrow. i was the fastest. LMAO. HEHE. but i spoke to fast. so i will try to slow down. LOL! then then then... rehearsal ended. hee

went to cut hair with zt. i have short and black hair now!

X_X and the hair dresser asked why would i not cry when i have this kind of hair. then i say.. im used to it already. -.- hahahhaha

omg. okay! damm tired which i don't know why. did nothing much too. blah.

nights! :)

5:12 AM
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I have decided that junsu a day keeps my troubles away. :D

ok. boo hoo. have to finish up on editing project. then then then..have to dye my hair black by this week.hope my mom is going to pay for it. then buy shoes. dang~ prepare for school reopen. >_< suck. suck. suck. when it suck and you just know it and can't do anything about it. >_< i hate this.

anyway.. jing is ending her exams in another 7 days??OMG i wanna sing with her. hehe.GOOKLUCK TO YOU OKAY! AND JAYCE! :p then then then.. so many things to do. >_< dang~

hmm. then then then.... presentation this coming thursday.
meeting up in the afternoon with hua tomorrow.
what else do i have to do? >_<

ok. shall not think for now.
goodnight people! :D

8:08 AM
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I need my happy pill to get me going.. >_<

ANNYEONG!!! >_< school is starting real soon and i HATE IT!

had project meeting today. and went to school to get the uniform. it was damm heavy i wonder whyy. But having to see the uniform, i felt kinda... sian already.. >_< school is starting next week. I'm feeling damm sucky now.. like serious. THIS SUCKS. X_X dang~

okay! then... went to sit in for the presentation. and guess what. i forgot that i had work until zengting asked me. and i was like. OMG. what day is it today?? -.- well oh well... i tend to be really forgetful these dayss. >_< and i wonder whyy. is there anything that helps with memory or helps my brain?

okay! im tired. but have project to do. dang~
goodnight people. D:

8:06 AM
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HEHE! my another soulmate is back in SG.. AWWWWW~~ I MISSED HER SO MUCH! YOU BETTER MEET ME UP JIAHUA!!!!

8:37 AM
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Back from staying over at qi's place. HUR HUR. her house is damm big and damm cool. >_<

I HATE MY STUPIDITY OR WAS IT JUST MY SENSE OF DIRECTION?

Cooking was done by qi, ying, me and jayce did her cheese cake(which was.. ediable to a certain extend. HAHAH :P) dinner was supposed to start at 7pm and we started late. and so.. we end up having supper instead. haha.

We watched movie at night and then chatted and slept at 4am. hahaha. then when we woke up. we chatted again and went to have brunch. LMAO. i think its forever fun talking to fangirls. its like.. seriously. haha. then as usual we talked about our love life and such.. and its quite sad talking bout it. lmao. but gahh~ i think im happy just with JUNSU. hehe.

then i went to my ah ma house. and slept.. cos i realised i don't have my lap top and on top of that it was quite boring..hahaha. :p but i was glad that i could make it from qi's house to my grandma house with the limited sense of direction that i have.. haha. :p

celebrated jing and kelly's birthday! HAHA. :p HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) lol.

okay! thats all for my weekends. i have not done my project yet damm sian..
BYE!

6:20 AM
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Desperately searching but could never be found. Is that how my life would be?

AYE~ another day.. hahha.

7:24 AM
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how much i love him and can't get him. reasons that i only know. i wanna dive into my junsu la-la land and never come up again. i hate reality. i hate the place where im living now and i want a change. a big big change.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5eoljSI5G8
this video is KIM BUM AND KIM SO EUN(GAEUL) wahh so damm cutee i died.

almost went jogging this afternoon with my soulmate. I shall put cindy under my soulmate section. HAHAH :p but then after 30min of warm up(in our individual house) cindy can't make it. hahahhaa. cos she was feeling weak. so we did not run. but in the end i was trying damm hard hopping and jumping around trying to learn eat you up. haha. its damm difficult.-.- i want to die already. but the dance is so so so niceee. how i wish i have some basics at the back of my hands where i can use it as and when i want. there are a lot of wants. but i can't seem to have them all. >_< why is life so difficult?

did not go for beijing clique meeting. super sorry. >_<

okay! thats all for today. :) hur hur.
goodbyeeee people.

5:05 AM
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Project meeting today. BOO HOO! >_<

okay. so basically was project meeting and then i went to bank in my money on my way home..
and then i went back home to slack and fangirl a bit.
and then i went out again to hand up some feess.
and then when i reach home i went jogging.
and then i watch tv
and then i bathe
and then i am here typing away.

okay! thats for the day.
bye people! :)
goodnight!

8:43 AM
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