keep the faith

Annyeonghasaeyo. I am super bored. hahaha. Next week EEEEXXXAAAAAMMMMMSSSS AAAAHHHHH~ I still haven study for it yet.*DIES* I am such an lazy ass. But whatever. I just don't have the mood. The sense of emergency. ~____~

So i went to park's house to 'study'(obviously i did not, opps) then we were singing together and waiting for park myeon su to appear. hahaha. Happy together was super late last night. And bae seu ki was there. haha. I don't know why i am so happy bout the fact that she was actually 65kg before. (^0^) hahhaa. I wonder how she slim down till what she is today. :P lol. But anyway.. haha. back to my exam. OMO! I am going to my grandma house like later?! How am i going to study!? hahha. Okay! I just don't bring my lap top there . this should do the trick. Cos i can ONLY study then. Without computer to let me look at my boys.. hahaha.

Okay. shall go off. have a good day preparing for the test and yeah.. hope we can pass together. I need fangirl time. >.< Hahhaa. But shall do it only after test. >.< CONTROL!

6:00 PM
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Mavis/huizhen's graduation!!!! LOL. quite long ago but still.. haha. some pics to share. :D










Haha. What is with the doors?!











<3




OMO~ Unglam shots are my favourite. <3





What is with jane?! hahhha!




only my SHADOW looks sexy. hahaha!

?!

Annyeong! :D

5:40 AM
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A preview of huizhen's graduation. more COMING SOON! hahahhaha. :D

Annyeong! hahaha. Today celebrated van's birthday! lol. We went to don't know what ktv and sang there. hahha. Though there was only 2 hours but still enjoyable. And quite cheap as well. LOL. :P Anyway. I wish her a happy birthday!! :D

Super tired today and still had to go for the SA interview. LOL. >0< Then they have this orientation that we must go to confirm that we can get in or not. :( so boring. If can't get in is a waste of time. LOL. My friend told me she don't understand my blog. haha. Cos it is in fangirl language. I think the star show is really very cute. Its like..aww.. the things that they have been through and all. hais. hahahah! Why am i here?! LOL. But anyway.. hahhaa. Tomorrow is a long way to go and then i will have exams and then YESH! BREAK! hahahha. But seems like my break is packed as well since we have quite a number of projects on hand to complete. :( *DIES* Lesser time to play and all. i still wanna work for some time to earn a bit more money! :( :( But nevermind. hahaha. I don't really enjoy working. So its okay! hahahaha. I just wanna play play and play! LOL. YEAH! Korean class starts on the 9th. hehehe.

OKay i think i need to sleep soon. I am super tired. LOL. NIGHTS JAL JA!

9:39 AM
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AWW. CHANGMIN!!! hahaha. I urge you to watch star show! super duper nice! hahhaha. SUPER FUNNY! I laughed till my ass dropped. But you have to watch with subs. hahahha. OMO! So cute can! hahahha. Changmin, i am falling for you! jane don't be angry with me. hahahha. his answers are sugoi! hahahhaa

OMO~ I almost died when i see this picture!


SHINee. Hehehe. The one in the middle is the one i like. AWW. hahhaa. He is so good looking. hahhaha! :}

Okay. Tomorrow.. Class outing/celebration. LOL. Was thinking if i should go. but i think most prob i am going. hehhe. I still have SA interview to go. Super boring can! I HATE INTERVIEWS! ROAR! TSK TSK! hais. But still have to stay for that like from 4pm onwards? It better be fast. I don't wanna go home so late. Super tired one. haha. Wanted to go jogging today. But i failed totally. Fell asleep instead cos i was dead bored. People are like mugging and i am sleeping. I wonder what is wrong with me. hahaha I just don't have the mood to start studying yet. hahaha. I AM A LAZY ASS! My mom borrowed my lap top and my first reaction was like HUH!? You and my lap top? hahhaa. My dad and her wanna watch dvd T___T.

Okay. Lets see.. I have nothing else to talk about. So nights! jal ja! :D

OMO! changmin ah~ jaejoong ah~ hahahhhahaha. <3

8:10 AM
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Annyeonghaesaeyo! jal jinaesseoyo? Omo. I am bloody tired today. :S I am sleep deprived. ARG! Next week have test.. hais.. YEAH! Tomorrow i can end school early! heheh! 4pm i can go home already! YAY YAY YAY! So tired man! Thursday i haev interview for the SA thingy. :P so tired. YEAH! Then friday comes. Then saturday then next week other then tet i don't need go school. YEAH! hhahahahaha. I just feel so tired and.. ya.. tired. LOL. >.<

OMO~ I watched the star show! hehehehe. SUPER CUTE! OMO! Love it man! LOL. So cute! hahaha. I am sliding towards to changminnie. mwahahhaha. So funny! hahha. he is super cute can! awww.. Oh my. Then their message to future wife is like. AWW. <3 I love jaejoong one! Then when junsu say that i was like..eww he might be thinking of taeyeon when he say that. So gross! Then i really like jaejoong one. So cute la. He call his girl a-gi. hahha! which means baby. I love the way he say things. HAHAH~ So sweet. :P

Okay gotta go. I super tired. :( Later still need to do work. :(

12:38 AM
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OMO! I have a new fandom! hahahah!! SHInee. Opps. DAMM. I think they are like really cute. LOL. Haha. Age 14-17. Got damm so young or even same age. I mean its like they are so young yet they look so good. AWWW. LOL. Not as good as DBn but yeah.. good enough! eheheh. Jonghyun omo! My new fandom. hahaha. I think i like the same guy as huiyi. LOL. :P He looks super good! hahahhaa. DAMM!

That means more money spent. ARG! hahha. A packed week coming soon. and i have exam next next week. :P *DREADS* THEN YAY~ Here comes my holiday! hehehe. I wonder when will my pay come? Hais. Save up. But i haveb so many things going on. AWW. MONEY AH~~~ Chunnie's birthday coming.Lets see what DBDB will do next. hahah! :P we are thinking about either BBQ or steamboat with them. hehhe. Lets see what special thing we can do for chunnie. hahahha. :D

Did i talk about yesterday? LOL. I saw the shin jung hwan look-alike yesterday when i was in orchard. And then huiyi was like asking me why are there so many shin jung hwan in Singporea? then i was like huh? Then she show me. Then i was like OMO! That is the guy from my school which i was talking about that looks like shin jung hwan. hahaha. So funny la. Told cha he look like shi jung hwan. I got a shocked when i saw him too!LOL.

okay shin jung hwan aside. LOL. OMO~ SHInee. hahaha.
I just finished watching the we got married. OMO! ANDY AH~~ hahaha. He is so so so sweet. *LOVE* aww. Like.. <3 hahaha. Just like it. LOL. Solbi too! They make a really good couple. LOL. How cute la!

Okay. ja ne! <3

10:39 PM
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Annyeong! YAY-ness. Today i can go sing again! heheh. I have VERY serious problems on financial management. I finsh my money before the month ends. ~__~ Which means i am a binbo(poor in japan) person now. SUPER SUPER SUPRE POOR! But ironically, i am going ktv today. LMAO. whatever. hahaha! I just feel like singing. LOL.

Oh yes, one thing i have to mention. haha. Yesterday i went to meet verin for work at hougang mall. I reached earlier so i shop around while waiting for her. then i went into sembawang and check out the albums. Guess what? I picked up snsd's album(the one that i hate the most in this world) and hahaha. There are 2 sides with all 9 of the members. So i was like eww so disgusting, taeyeon is there. Then i flip over to the other side.. oh so is taeyeon on which side of the album? They looks so identical!? hahaha. MOST of them look the same i should say. I was like oh.. so which one is taeyeon?! hahhaa. I can only differentiate yoona, tiffany which has the voice of a COW according to huiyi she brainlessly said that shin hye sung have the voice of a goat?! I think that is bunch of girls are like plastic vase. Brainless and only for show. Seriouly dumb can!

okay next.. what can i say.. hmm. Oh yes. park have this singing thingy. OMO! I wanna join so much. $150 per month with unlimited lessons. So not cheap can.hahaha. As in for a poor person like me it is not cheap la. But they have trail like next friday. hehehe. I wanna go. Sounds fun to be. :P And i have a lot of stupid projects to finsih. This and that added up to become a mountain FULL of work. LOL.

The graduation photos are still not sent to me yet lol. I will post it when i receive it. haha. then you can see how crazy we are.

I think samantha from my school and of cos same class as me is very very good. LOL. She is a very nice person. LOL. When i was feeling sad bout junsu and was emo quite a few days she actually bought me sweeet. So nice of her to do that. LOL. And i think my emo-ness was eating me up during that time. LMAO. Cos even huizhen was like saying why am i so emo and all.. hais. But it is all over now i guess. :D I am a happy girl! <3

Jal ka yo. I can't wait to sing! :D

7:40 PM
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Annyeong! Junsu is so dead. His scandal has successfully made it into the news. All thanks to his overwhelming hormones.. So far i still don't understand what is he trying to do or show? 3 words. life goes on.

Okay lets round up for today. we spent our lunch time eating of cos and then we went to watch EHB ep9. Super cute i can tell you. hahhaha! Cos we were watching this together. Then there is this few girls suddenly standing behind us and like watching with us. But they are not fangirls. How sad. hahaha. But generally people still think i look emo and sad when i think i am recovering already. hahhhaa. But thanks sam alot for the sweet she gave me, how sweet of her. There are really nice people out there who cares. :D Then tutorials today was like. ~____~ as usual. hahhaa. Especially intHT. LOL. comm skill test was deadly. LMAO. i think i have not write for a long time..(searching for an excuse) lol.

Okay.. anyway.. I am looking forward to this saturday cos i can sing again! hehehe. Tomorrow have work. :(

Then ehhhh... oh yes! haha. huizhen's graduation thingy was funny cos when she went up jane and huiyi shouted. mavis saranghaeyo! LMAO. and people were laughing. Even the person on stage say she got a lot of supporters. LMAO. Then we still brought huge boards with jaejoong in kor written on it. LMAO. The we took like tons of random pics. They still sense the emo-ness in me. I somehow feel it too, but it just won't go away..I wonder why. Its okay. I still had a great time taking photos with them. LOL. They are cute people. hahhaa. Please don't be affected by me.

jal ja!

8:23 AM
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Oh yeah great, I confirm fail my intHT test today. ~__~ zzz But gald that only 5% is taken from it. hehehe. Phew. I shall not be affected anymore. No matter what.. life goes on. Tomorrow i still have comm skill compo writing and i have to do research on the topic i am doing. And i have to search for like 2 topics and it is so wide that i don't know where and how i should start searching for it.

YAY! Seems like I have a packed week. I have something on after school tomorrow. hehehe. SO.. well... hehehehe. Then friday i have work. SUCKS! hahaha. I just don't have the mood to work. :P Not fun at all. There were 3 of us who joined cartel that day, me+huiyi+another indian guy which i don't know who. And now.. haha. there is only me left. Anyone with better pay jobs please please let me know. My current pay is like only $5.

Coming sat. Therapy with my dbdb girls. hahha. we are going to sing! YAY-ness. hehehe. I love it. haha. sing sing sing! hehehe. >.< I think my mid year exam is comig soon. SUCKS! I think like 2 more weeks? which would past so fast. I think time really flies. Without me knowing it is already the what? 5th week? And i think i have learnt nothing much. :( hahahha! wasn't really paying attention and all. hahhaa. I can't help it. It is just so boring and i think i really need to start studying and pick up all the things that i am suppose to know.

Okay, huiyi and vien is at my house now. Ja ne! :D

4:27 AM
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I think seriously i am screwed up and so is junsu. Why did he do that in public. Apparently there are proves already. So its like. can't he have some self control and like do it discretely so as not to ruin DBSK? Its like doesn't he know this scandals will affect DBSK as a WHOLE and not himself only? I don't bother about the bitch taeyeon. But just that it is like.. I don't know how to say and I am just screwed up and overwhelmed by sadness. I have not been studying cos of this news and i believe i can't concentrate anymore with this kind of things going on. I wish him happy and all the best to DBSK's future. 6 years of training and this happens.. well.. what more can i say i am like just a tiny fan out of the so many.. I wonder how many people's heart have be broke and how many people have cried for it. People still try to hide it for him. I think that there is no point hiding for him since eventually if things goes on like this the koreans will know. When the koreans know... Hmm. most prob(?) say bye bye to DBSK? I am already feeling shit with this guess what the korean fans will do? Burn taeyeon's house? sad thing is i am in singapore if not i will SURELY help out okay!

Anyway. I still have to finish school work no matter how i dread it. And i have a test tomorrow i wonder how am i going to cope it. So sucky. But whatever, seems like i don't have a choice. :'( That's it! I am out of love.

7:23 AM
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HOLLYWOOD BOWL, just like yoochun's childhood, it brings me sad memories for me too! I HATE THIS WOMEN TO THE CORE TO THE MAX!


OMG! I am seriously an official SNSD anti fan! I can't help it. My blood pressure is constantly increasing. WHAT IS GOING ON THERE THAT I DON'T KNOW!? I am super duber pissed. Call me crazy. He don't even know me and what am i pissed about since i have nothing to do with him in reality other than being his fan? can you understand it?! WHY DID THEY HUG EACH OTHER?! WHY DID JUNSU PULL HER CHEECKS?!(IT IS TAEYEON IF YOU DON'T KNOW) WHY WHY WHY!? Oh man oh man! I just hate this. If they do it secretly i can still live in denial. Why they did it so openly? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHY?! OMG! i feel so depressed now. I am so so so sad. SO SO SO EMO! Its like why!? I hate them all man. SNSD. Why were they created? I feel so pissed. I shall take over sooman's place. He knows nothing about this field man! HE SHOULD CONTROL HIS GIRLS AND NOT LET THEM MESS UP MY DB! HOW COULD THEY! ALL PLASTICS! OH MAN! I just hate it. Now i can understand how yoochun fans feel.him with yoona and boa.(ITS NOT TRUE, I STRONGLY FORCE MYSELF TO BELIEVE) its like this is a very serious thing! They having girlfriends is equals to terrorist coming to my door pressing the door bell and say can i plant the bomb in your house. It is normal for them to have girlfriends BUT its like totally what the hell. Call me messed up all whatever you want. But i just CAN'T take this shit! When your love is really deep for a person, this happens. You just can't help it and start cursing. You better don't step on my tail or you shall get bombed as well. I JUST HATE HATE HATE IT!

Calm myself down and brace myself.ROAR! I REALLY REALLY NEED TO GO KOREA! I need long term planning! I hate all the girls in SNSD now man! i just can't help it. People without talents can be there too! Unless you are telling me your talent is to brag, then you win! But its like.. ahhhhh. i am not in the right mind. Don't mind me yelling at you cos i am just... not in the right state of mind.

*runs off ROAR-ing away*

7:57 AM
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OMO! hhahah. this made me laugh! lol. How cute la! I miss him~ aww. hahaha. I wanna be their dogs.hahaha. GOSH what am i saying?!Their dogs are seriously so so so so so cute! :P The way they treat them. I think i prefer to be harang(chunnie's) or jaejoongie's dog.heheh. xiahki(junsu) is always with junho la. Hahah. he bought the dog and let his brother keep it for him. LOL. Last night they were in LA aww. Performed 4 songs? and tonight!!!! hahaha. they have not sang that for a long time man! aww. I wanna see them on tv soon. I wanna fangirl! aww.

Work was like okay.. but then.. i still prefer to be in botak. I think by comparing you can see how good it is. The people culture and environment. Seems like.. ya.. i just love it.hahahaa.:P okay once i found a better job after this month i will jump ovver. If you know any GOOD PAY job please find me! :D hehehe. I wan a better pay job!

Cherish what a wonderful word. Who can accomplish it?! I feel quiet, so not me. :( But what can i do? I just don't feel like showing any care or concern to anyone. I don't feel right. :( EMO.. >.<

jal ka yo. oetteoke? mahni sarang an jo wa hae yo. shiro.

10:10 PM
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Okay! First day of work and i think i am super tired! >.< I think it is not the work load, cos i think BJ(botak jones) trained us quite well. LMAO. Cos not really a lot of people for a friday night! Then I was the host last night. which is the one standing there and bringing people to their seats. LOL. So the thing i do is stand at the front door there, smile and say WELCOME! Then there are quite a number of things to do compared to BJ and i think BJ is good cos you only need to clean your area. What i mean is cos we have to clean the WHOLE cartel, so BJ is just the shop and collect our things back. And we can do things VERY fast. hahaha. But then here i think people are relatively slow. hahahhaa. Everytime when it is time to go home i think i will be the fastest! hahhahha! I will be like ahh! go home already. *rush rush* hahahaha.

AHH! My DB is in US today! >.< sobs. So sad man! hais. But that means that there will be news and things like that! hhaha. So its okay!! LOL. fangirling have to tone down. Why are there so much things to do? hais. Life.. But i shall bear with it. If i wanna get what i want this is NOTHING man! okay! pa-i-ding! JUNSU~~ I feel like going out to play but how to without money?? hais. double sad man! nai mind! WORK HARD then STUDY HARD. Then SAVE MONEY then GO OVERSEAS FOR CONCERT!!!!! Motivation and aim. DBSK/TVXQ/THSK/DBSG/DONGBAGHSINKI/TOHOSHINKI mwahahhahahahhha! ~_____~ I am super tired now. zzz

Shall go home straight after work! YEOSH!

Good luck to DB and myself!
Annyeong!

8:53 PM
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OMG! SO SKINNY! *JEALOUS*

Bloddy pissed! TSK! I slept at 12 the night before and woke up like 330AM yestreday to study the FBfun class test. AND TMD! They are not talking the marks. Like WTH?! Waste my time man. Tho i never really studied.. But still...

I miss junsu like mad! hahha. Its like.. hais.. I don't what to do and say. LOL. Why is my susu so cute?! AWW.. He is going to US this saturday when i am starting to work already. HAIS. WORK! I have to work! il haeyo! Starting from this friday i will be working at cafe cartel. $5 a bit little but i have NO CHOICE since i have no money plus vien is there so should be okay. ARG. *DIES* Must work hard! Be a hard working girl! YEOSH! Let's haptic is the in thing to say now. hahhaha.

LET'S HAPTIC!

Going to school later. ~___~zzz (everyday is tired cos there is sch!)

5:05 PM
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My moral support

Still haev to go study FB test tomorrow! SUCKS no sleep for me. okay! night babes.

~___~zzz

*rushes off to study*

jal ja!

8:31 AM
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Annyeong. What does fandom give you. Happiness! <3 haha. Yesterday was taiwan concert.I bet everything went smoothly. Other than the fact that i don't like yoochun's pony tail at the back part of the concert.I was like -__-; when i saw it.hahah. junsu looks like what i last saw him. Black hair. AWW. How i wish everyday is 241107. It this possible? I miss him so much. :( JUNSU AH~

Happy mother's day to all mothers.

hahhaa. Oh man. I need to work badly! hahhaa. No money, no income cannot get my T concert goods. Okay. Have to plan out what i have to do now.

1. Save up
2. Get T concert DVD
3. Get 4th korean album
5. Save for concert.(thailand/korea)
6. study really hard for exams and show my father that i can work and still do well.
7. Get myself a cca(i can be cca-less too, i don't mind since i think i will be really busy)
8. Must plan time well so that fangirl and work is balanced.normally the fangirl part is on the extreme ends)
9. Do well in korean class!

Okay. I think that is all for now. YEOSH! Shall accomplish all these things. HEHEHE! JUNSU AH~~~ hais. work hard man!

yeosh! annyeong! jal ka-yo! dong bang shin ki pa-i-ding.pogoshippo!

12:37 AM
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Annyeonghasaeyo. I am super bored. hahaha. Next week EEEEXXXAAAAAMMMMMSSSS AAAAHHHHH~ I still haven study for it yet.*DIES* I am such an lazy ass. But whatever. I just don't have the mood. The sense of emergency. ~____~

So i went to park's house to 'study'(obviously i did not, opps) then we were singing together and waiting for park myeon su to appear. hahaha. Happy together was super late last night. And bae seu ki was there. haha. I don't know why i am so happy bout the fact that she was actually 65kg before. (^0^) hahhaa. I wonder how she slim down till what she is today. :P lol. But anyway.. haha. back to my exam. OMO! I am going to my grandma house like later?! How am i going to study!? hahha. Okay! I just don't bring my lap top there . this should do the trick. Cos i can ONLY study then. Without computer to let me look at my boys.. hahaha.

Okay. shall go off. have a good day preparing for the test and yeah.. hope we can pass together. I need fangirl time. >.< Hahhaa. But shall do it only after test. >.< CONTROL!

6:00 PM
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Mavis/huizhen's graduation!!!! LOL. quite long ago but still.. haha. some pics to share. :D










Haha. What is with the doors?!











<3




OMO~ Unglam shots are my favourite. <3





What is with jane?! hahhha!




only my SHADOW looks sexy. hahaha!

?!

Annyeong! :D

5:40 AM
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A preview of huizhen's graduation. more COMING SOON! hahahhaha. :D

Annyeong! hahaha. Today celebrated van's birthday! lol. We went to don't know what ktv and sang there. hahha. Though there was only 2 hours but still enjoyable. And quite cheap as well. LOL. :P Anyway. I wish her a happy birthday!! :D

Super tired today and still had to go for the SA interview. LOL. >0< Then they have this orientation that we must go to confirm that we can get in or not. :( so boring. If can't get in is a waste of time. LOL. My friend told me she don't understand my blog. haha. Cos it is in fangirl language. I think the star show is really very cute. Its like..aww.. the things that they have been through and all. hais. hahahah! Why am i here?! LOL. But anyway.. hahhaa. Tomorrow is a long way to go and then i will have exams and then YESH! BREAK! hahahha. But seems like my break is packed as well since we have quite a number of projects on hand to complete. :( *DIES* Lesser time to play and all. i still wanna work for some time to earn a bit more money! :( :( But nevermind. hahaha. I don't really enjoy working. So its okay! hahahaha. I just wanna play play and play! LOL. YEAH! Korean class starts on the 9th. hehehe.

OKay i think i need to sleep soon. I am super tired. LOL. NIGHTS JAL JA!

9:39 AM
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AWW. CHANGMIN!!! hahaha. I urge you to watch star show! super duper nice! hahhaha. SUPER FUNNY! I laughed till my ass dropped. But you have to watch with subs. hahahha. OMO! So cute can! hahahha. Changmin, i am falling for you! jane don't be angry with me. hahahha. his answers are sugoi! hahahhaa

OMO~ I almost died when i see this picture!


SHINee. Hehehe. The one in the middle is the one i like. AWW. hahhaa. He is so good looking. hahhaha! :}

Okay. Tomorrow.. Class outing/celebration. LOL. Was thinking if i should go. but i think most prob i am going. hehhe. I still have SA interview to go. Super boring can! I HATE INTERVIEWS! ROAR! TSK TSK! hais. But still have to stay for that like from 4pm onwards? It better be fast. I don't wanna go home so late. Super tired one. haha. Wanted to go jogging today. But i failed totally. Fell asleep instead cos i was dead bored. People are like mugging and i am sleeping. I wonder what is wrong with me. hahaha I just don't have the mood to start studying yet. hahaha. I AM A LAZY ASS! My mom borrowed my lap top and my first reaction was like HUH!? You and my lap top? hahhaa. My dad and her wanna watch dvd T___T.

Okay. Lets see.. I have nothing else to talk about. So nights! jal ja! :D

OMO! changmin ah~ jaejoong ah~ hahahhhahaha. <3

8:10 AM
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Annyeonghaesaeyo! jal jinaesseoyo? Omo. I am bloody tired today. :S I am sleep deprived. ARG! Next week have test.. hais.. YEAH! Tomorrow i can end school early! heheh! 4pm i can go home already! YAY YAY YAY! So tired man! Thursday i haev interview for the SA thingy. :P so tired. YEAH! Then friday comes. Then saturday then next week other then tet i don't need go school. YEAH! hhahahahaha. I just feel so tired and.. ya.. tired. LOL. >.<

OMO~ I watched the star show! hehehehe. SUPER CUTE! OMO! Love it man! LOL. So cute! hahaha. I am sliding towards to changminnie. mwahahhaha. So funny! hahha. he is super cute can! awww.. Oh my. Then their message to future wife is like. AWW. <3 I love jaejoong one! Then when junsu say that i was like..eww he might be thinking of taeyeon when he say that. So gross! Then i really like jaejoong one. So cute la. He call his girl a-gi. hahha! which means baby. I love the way he say things. HAHAH~ So sweet. :P

Okay gotta go. I super tired. :( Later still need to do work. :(

12:38 AM
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OMO! I have a new fandom! hahahah!! SHInee. Opps. DAMM. I think they are like really cute. LOL. Haha. Age 14-17. Got damm so young or even same age. I mean its like they are so young yet they look so good. AWWW. LOL. Not as good as DBn but yeah.. good enough! eheheh. Jonghyun omo! My new fandom. hahaha. I think i like the same guy as huiyi. LOL. :P He looks super good! hahahhaa. DAMM!

That means more money spent. ARG! hahha. A packed week coming soon. and i have exam next next week. :P *DREADS* THEN YAY~ Here comes my holiday! hehehe. I wonder when will my pay come? Hais. Save up. But i haveb so many things going on. AWW. MONEY AH~~~ Chunnie's birthday coming.Lets see what DBDB will do next. hahah! :P we are thinking about either BBQ or steamboat with them. hehhe. Lets see what special thing we can do for chunnie. hahahha. :D

Did i talk about yesterday? LOL. I saw the shin jung hwan look-alike yesterday when i was in orchard. And then huiyi was like asking me why are there so many shin jung hwan in Singporea? then i was like huh? Then she show me. Then i was like OMO! That is the guy from my school which i was talking about that looks like shin jung hwan. hahaha. So funny la. Told cha he look like shi jung hwan. I got a shocked when i saw him too!LOL.

okay shin jung hwan aside. LOL. OMO~ SHInee. hahaha.
I just finished watching the we got married. OMO! ANDY AH~~ hahaha. He is so so so sweet. *LOVE* aww. Like.. <3 hahaha. Just like it. LOL. Solbi too! They make a really good couple. LOL. How cute la!

Okay. ja ne! <3

10:39 PM
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Annyeong! YAY-ness. Today i can go sing again! heheh. I have VERY serious problems on financial management. I finsh my money before the month ends. ~__~ Which means i am a binbo(poor in japan) person now. SUPER SUPER SUPRE POOR! But ironically, i am going ktv today. LMAO. whatever. hahaha! I just feel like singing. LOL.

Oh yes, one thing i have to mention. haha. Yesterday i went to meet verin for work at hougang mall. I reached earlier so i shop around while waiting for her. then i went into sembawang and check out the albums. Guess what? I picked up snsd's album(the one that i hate the most in this world) and hahaha. There are 2 sides with all 9 of the members. So i was like eww so disgusting, taeyeon is there. Then i flip over to the other side.. oh so is taeyeon on which side of the album? They looks so identical!? hahaha. MOST of them look the same i should say. I was like oh.. so which one is taeyeon?! hahhaa. I can only differentiate yoona, tiffany which has the voice of a COW according to huiyi she brainlessly said that shin hye sung have the voice of a goat?! I think that is bunch of girls are like plastic vase. Brainless and only for show. Seriouly dumb can!

okay next.. what can i say.. hmm. Oh yes. park have this singing thingy. OMO! I wanna join so much. $150 per month with unlimited lessons. So not cheap can.hahaha. As in for a poor person like me it is not cheap la. But they have trail like next friday. hehehe. I wanna go. Sounds fun to be. :P And i have a lot of stupid projects to finsih. This and that added up to become a mountain FULL of work. LOL.

The graduation photos are still not sent to me yet lol. I will post it when i receive it. haha. then you can see how crazy we are.

I think samantha from my school and of cos same class as me is very very good. LOL. She is a very nice person. LOL. When i was feeling sad bout junsu and was emo quite a few days she actually bought me sweeet. So nice of her to do that. LOL. And i think my emo-ness was eating me up during that time. LMAO. Cos even huizhen was like saying why am i so emo and all.. hais. But it is all over now i guess. :D I am a happy girl! <3

Jal ka yo. I can't wait to sing! :D

7:40 PM
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Annyeong! Junsu is so dead. His scandal has successfully made it into the news. All thanks to his overwhelming hormones.. So far i still don't understand what is he trying to do or show? 3 words. life goes on.

Okay lets round up for today. we spent our lunch time eating of cos and then we went to watch EHB ep9. Super cute i can tell you. hahhaha! Cos we were watching this together. Then there is this few girls suddenly standing behind us and like watching with us. But they are not fangirls. How sad. hahaha. But generally people still think i look emo and sad when i think i am recovering already. hahhhaa. But thanks sam alot for the sweet she gave me, how sweet of her. There are really nice people out there who cares. :D Then tutorials today was like. ~____~ as usual. hahhaa. Especially intHT. LOL. comm skill test was deadly. LMAO. i think i have not write for a long time..(searching for an excuse) lol.

Okay.. anyway.. I am looking forward to this saturday cos i can sing again! hehehe. Tomorrow have work. :(

Then ehhhh... oh yes! haha. huizhen's graduation thingy was funny cos when she went up jane and huiyi shouted. mavis saranghaeyo! LMAO. and people were laughing. Even the person on stage say she got a lot of supporters. LMAO. Then we still brought huge boards with jaejoong in kor written on it. LMAO. The we took like tons of random pics. They still sense the emo-ness in me. I somehow feel it too, but it just won't go away..I wonder why. Its okay. I still had a great time taking photos with them. LOL. They are cute people. hahhaa. Please don't be affected by me.

jal ja!

8:23 AM
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Oh yeah great, I confirm fail my intHT test today. ~__~ zzz But gald that only 5% is taken from it. hehehe. Phew. I shall not be affected anymore. No matter what.. life goes on. Tomorrow i still have comm skill compo writing and i have to do research on the topic i am doing. And i have to search for like 2 topics and it is so wide that i don't know where and how i should start searching for it.

YAY! Seems like I have a packed week. I have something on after school tomorrow. hehehe. SO.. well... hehehehe. Then friday i have work. SUCKS! hahaha. I just don't have the mood to work. :P Not fun at all. There were 3 of us who joined cartel that day, me+huiyi+another indian guy which i don't know who. And now.. haha. there is only me left. Anyone with better pay jobs please please let me know. My current pay is like only $5.

Coming sat. Therapy with my dbdb girls. hahha. we are going to sing! YAY-ness. hehehe. I love it. haha. sing sing sing! hehehe. >.< I think my mid year exam is comig soon. SUCKS! I think like 2 more weeks? which would past so fast. I think time really flies. Without me knowing it is already the what? 5th week? And i think i have learnt nothing much. :( hahahha! wasn't really paying attention and all. hahhaa. I can't help it. It is just so boring and i think i really need to start studying and pick up all the things that i am suppose to know.

Okay, huiyi and vien is at my house now. Ja ne! :D

4:27 AM
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I think seriously i am screwed up and so is junsu. Why did he do that in public. Apparently there are proves already. So its like. can't he have some self control and like do it discretely so as not to ruin DBSK? Its like doesn't he know this scandals will affect DBSK as a WHOLE and not himself only? I don't bother about the bitch taeyeon. But just that it is like.. I don't know how to say and I am just screwed up and overwhelmed by sadness. I have not been studying cos of this news and i believe i can't concentrate anymore with this kind of things going on. I wish him happy and all the best to DBSK's future. 6 years of training and this happens.. well.. what more can i say i am like just a tiny fan out of the so many.. I wonder how many people's heart have be broke and how many people have cried for it. People still try to hide it for him. I think that there is no point hiding for him since eventually if things goes on like this the koreans will know. When the koreans know... Hmm. most prob(?) say bye bye to DBSK? I am already feeling shit with this guess what the korean fans will do? Burn taeyeon's house? sad thing is i am in singapore if not i will SURELY help out okay!

Anyway. I still have to finish school work no matter how i dread it. And i have a test tomorrow i wonder how am i going to cope it. So sucky. But whatever, seems like i don't have a choice. :'( That's it! I am out of love.

7:23 AM
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HOLLYWOOD BOWL, just like yoochun's childhood, it brings me sad memories for me too! I HATE THIS WOMEN TO THE CORE TO THE MAX!


OMG! I am seriously an official SNSD anti fan! I can't help it. My blood pressure is constantly increasing. WHAT IS GOING ON THERE THAT I DON'T KNOW!? I am super duber pissed. Call me crazy. He don't even know me and what am i pissed about since i have nothing to do with him in reality other than being his fan? can you understand it?! WHY DID THEY HUG EACH OTHER?! WHY DID JUNSU PULL HER CHEECKS?!(IT IS TAEYEON IF YOU DON'T KNOW) WHY WHY WHY!? Oh man oh man! I just hate this. If they do it secretly i can still live in denial. Why they did it so openly? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! WHY?! OMG! i feel so depressed now. I am so so so sad. SO SO SO EMO! Its like why!? I hate them all man. SNSD. Why were they created? I feel so pissed. I shall take over sooman's place. He knows nothing about this field man! HE SHOULD CONTROL HIS GIRLS AND NOT LET THEM MESS UP MY DB! HOW COULD THEY! ALL PLASTICS! OH MAN! I just hate it. Now i can understand how yoochun fans feel.him with yoona and boa.(ITS NOT TRUE, I STRONGLY FORCE MYSELF TO BELIEVE) its like this is a very serious thing! They having girlfriends is equals to terrorist coming to my door pressing the door bell and say can i plant the bomb in your house. It is normal for them to have girlfriends BUT its like totally what the hell. Call me messed up all whatever you want. But i just CAN'T take this shit! When your love is really deep for a person, this happens. You just can't help it and start cursing. You better don't step on my tail or you shall get bombed as well. I JUST HATE HATE HATE IT!

Calm myself down and brace myself.ROAR! I REALLY REALLY NEED TO GO KOREA! I need long term planning! I hate all the girls in SNSD now man! i just can't help it. People without talents can be there too! Unless you are telling me your talent is to brag, then you win! But its like.. ahhhhh. i am not in the right mind. Don't mind me yelling at you cos i am just... not in the right state of mind.

*runs off ROAR-ing away*

7:57 AM
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OMO! hhahah. this made me laugh! lol. How cute la! I miss him~ aww. hahaha. I wanna be their dogs.hahaha. GOSH what am i saying?!Their dogs are seriously so so so so so cute! :P The way they treat them. I think i prefer to be harang(chunnie's) or jaejoongie's dog.heheh. xiahki(junsu) is always with junho la. Hahah. he bought the dog and let his brother keep it for him. LOL. Last night they were in LA aww. Performed 4 songs? and tonight!!!! hahaha. they have not sang that for a long time man! aww. I wanna see them on tv soon. I wanna fangirl! aww.

Work was like okay.. but then.. i still prefer to be in botak. I think by comparing you can see how good it is. The people culture and environment. Seems like.. ya.. i just love it.hahahaa.:P okay once i found a better job after this month i will jump ovver. If you know any GOOD PAY job please find me! :D hehehe. I wan a better pay job!

Cherish what a wonderful word. Who can accomplish it?! I feel quiet, so not me. :( But what can i do? I just don't feel like showing any care or concern to anyone. I don't feel right. :( EMO.. >.<

jal ka yo. oetteoke? mahni sarang an jo wa hae yo. shiro.

10:10 PM
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Okay! First day of work and i think i am super tired! >.< I think it is not the work load, cos i think BJ(botak jones) trained us quite well. LMAO. Cos not really a lot of people for a friday night! Then I was the host last night. which is the one standing there and bringing people to their seats. LOL. So the thing i do is stand at the front door there, smile and say WELCOME! Then there are quite a number of things to do compared to BJ and i think BJ is good cos you only need to clean your area. What i mean is cos we have to clean the WHOLE cartel, so BJ is just the shop and collect our things back. And we can do things VERY fast. hahaha. But then here i think people are relatively slow. hahahhaa. Everytime when it is time to go home i think i will be the fastest! hahhahha! I will be like ahh! go home already. *rush rush* hahahaha.

AHH! My DB is in US today! >.< sobs. So sad man! hais. But that means that there will be news and things like that! hhaha. So its okay!! LOL. fangirling have to tone down. Why are there so much things to do? hais. Life.. But i shall bear with it. If i wanna get what i want this is NOTHING man! okay! pa-i-ding! JUNSU~~ I feel like going out to play but how to without money?? hais. double sad man! nai mind! WORK HARD then STUDY HARD. Then SAVE MONEY then GO OVERSEAS FOR CONCERT!!!!! Motivation and aim. DBSK/TVXQ/THSK/DBSG/DONGBAGHSINKI/TOHOSHINKI mwahahhahahahhha! ~_____~ I am super tired now. zzz

Shall go home straight after work! YEOSH!

Good luck to DB and myself!
Annyeong!

8:53 PM
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OMG! SO SKINNY! *JEALOUS*

Bloddy pissed! TSK! I slept at 12 the night before and woke up like 330AM yestreday to study the FBfun class test. AND TMD! They are not talking the marks. Like WTH?! Waste my time man. Tho i never really studied.. But still...

I miss junsu like mad! hahha. Its like.. hais.. I don't what to do and say. LOL. Why is my susu so cute?! AWW.. He is going to US this saturday when i am starting to work already. HAIS. WORK! I have to work! il haeyo! Starting from this friday i will be working at cafe cartel. $5 a bit little but i have NO CHOICE since i have no money plus vien is there so should be okay. ARG. *DIES* Must work hard! Be a hard working girl! YEOSH! Let's haptic is the in thing to say now. hahhaha.

LET'S HAPTIC!

Going to school later. ~___~zzz (everyday is tired cos there is sch!)

5:05 PM
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My moral support

Still haev to go study FB test tomorrow! SUCKS no sleep for me. okay! night babes.

~___~zzz

*rushes off to study*

jal ja!

8:31 AM
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Annyeong. What does fandom give you. Happiness! <3 haha. Yesterday was taiwan concert.I bet everything went smoothly. Other than the fact that i don't like yoochun's pony tail at the back part of the concert.I was like -__-; when i saw it.hahah. junsu looks like what i last saw him. Black hair. AWW. How i wish everyday is 241107. It this possible? I miss him so much. :( JUNSU AH~

Happy mother's day to all mothers.

hahhaa. Oh man. I need to work badly! hahhaa. No money, no income cannot get my T concert goods. Okay. Have to plan out what i have to do now.

1. Save up
2. Get T concert DVD
3. Get 4th korean album
5. Save for concert.(thailand/korea)
6. study really hard for exams and show my father that i can work and still do well.
7. Get myself a cca(i can be cca-less too, i don't mind since i think i will be really busy)
8. Must plan time well so that fangirl and work is balanced.normally the fangirl part is on the extreme ends)
9. Do well in korean class!

Okay. I think that is all for now. YEOSH! Shall accomplish all these things. HEHEHE! JUNSU AH~~~ hais. work hard man!

yeosh! annyeong! jal ka-yo! dong bang shin ki pa-i-ding.pogoshippo!

12:37 AM
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