keep the faith
Saturday, January 27, 2007



Okay.. after my few As of my essay i think i will past my eng paper 1. haha. WOO! I just love netball. Had training today morning. Only the running part is tired. The rest is fine. LOl. Fun and fast training. Love it man. Then went to heartland mall to have lunch. We gathered around and made the noisest noise i guess. Cause is like in the bus or where ever we go we are creating a lot of noise and laughter. We were talking about camps at mac. Lol. And laughing away about trans and butch. haha. cherie just don't admit that she is a butch. haha. Later i keep on saying then she really turn into one. haha. I think she super damm pissed with me. haha. So cute la. Netball girls are like so.. haha.

Then i went home and sleep fo rlike 2hs. Lol. WITHOUT BATHING i hop onto my BROTHER'S bed. haha. since it is not mine i don't really mind. lol. i don't know if my calender come already not. have been a long wait plus i want my pay. It has been like years la. She still haven give me i think i will call her next week or something. O guess she is a trans to seduce miki. Cause i can sense the trans feel in her. Its like with her taka flood pants and stuff, but not all trans are like her. As in the normal trans would not wear like her. Cause its like i am normal. haha. I don't wear the taka flood and walk around orchard. haha. I still haven buy ,y new year clothes! ARG. I think i am going for the musical night. lol. I guess farah have booked a place for me. Haha. Wonder how it would be. Lol. We are looking at you park.. haha. A trans watching muscial.. lol. no doubts, i usually watch 'ren yao' show. haha. lol.

I love you xiah. haha. my love for you grows every day and is never ending. XIAH saranghaeyoh!
Bye bye.
cherie you are a butch.. haha. -_-'''

3:16 AM



Friday, January 26, 2007



Essay topic: Describe the difference between bitch and slut.

Hoo. I sometimes just feel like bashing up people cause i don't understand why people can SHE be like so bitchy.. no should i say slutty.. Bitch is just not the right word for her. She is like some kind of evil forces. haha. With her or without her.. as long as she is in this world you will have a disguested feeling. Don't doubt it, that is the feeling you are having right now! I guess most people know who i am talking about. hahaha. the boyfriend snatcher or should i say the one which just like any guys. How flirtatious can a girl be?? Hmm. mayb if they are having this kind of research they can ask HER to join in. She can be like the contributor to the whole project and if, lucky she can win a prize for being the best flirt in the world. I will be the one organising it. haha. Cause you don't see many of such people around. So this is a great contribute to the world.

Lets start: firstly, she say that she is not lonely even though she sits alone, but when i read HER blog, she says that she feels lonely.. so what does this means? hmm. I can infer from the source in HER blog that she is feeling lonely but she dares not own up and put up a strong front. The evidence is "(read from her blog)". Therefore this shows that SHE is a loner. AWWW so sad.
secondly she just canceled her commenting place which i guess she hates it by now. BUT! there is no much use to it. Cause people would still comment it at your back, so no point. Why not you just face it? people is giving you a chance to change, you know... Hais. face(mian zi) is given by people, thrown by oneself. So.. you should know la. [ sorry that i can't help and bitch into other people's business but she said something which pissed me off. please look at my next point.]
thirdly, she say that we have no rights to judge. But i can infer from her older post-es that she actually judge a teacher called miss thia which i am pretty pissed with. You are the one who said that we should not judge people but look who is the one typing this out.. Its like can you please do something right? as in your life is like to what i see walking on a slope. Not walking but sliding off. Can you please like walk straight and not do such stuff which hurt others. Make others fight. Are you jealous of others who are such loving couples like me and xiah. Oh my.. hais. Can't stand this kind of people. Hais. Maybe i should sit. Oh.. what is this. Sorry that i am trying to add some humour in my essay. haha. Duh....

OKay i shall carry on with my life here.
Had this kind of lame lame thingy going between me and cherie. Haha.She is a butch and i am a trans. LMAO. lol. its like we are talking and talking and talking about this! Ended school at 11 which makes me so happy. Then went off for KFC, bought stuff at NTUC which my assistance is not watching her status. haha. and she wanna doubt what a chief says. haha. then went to my house and started the cheesy tart stuff. Woo. Fun. But most of the time i was like influencing vivien about dong bang, showing all their pics and stuff. That had make her bonkers. haha. she loves it as much as i do now! We(me and park) have been influencing people around us to like them. haha. and we succeeded. lol. not all even though. Lol. hmmm.. i have really tons and tons of unfinished homework. what should i do... hais.

Sad think for us that we walk over fuchun. i wanted to play with them, but its like....... hais. Tomorrow we still have training. OKay hwaiting! punggol. i think we still have one week plus time. So should get as much training as possible. lol. lets do it netball girls. For our last match. Shall end here.
ja ne! i love netball girls

4:28 AM



Thursday, January 25, 2007



Okay. I just love netball girls. They are like forever in my life. Something that cannot be missing. They are so CUTE. I support you nana! haha. Hmm.. I WANNA WIN OUR NEXT MATCH. THE GAME IS OURS MAN. WE CAN DIE IF WE LOSE TO THEM. lol. okay hwaiting. I don;t wanna disappoint Miss thia, i hope she can leave happily. She is the best teacher.

Had a no coach free training. Lol. Fun fun and so much fun. Though we did not do much and it started raining half way. So we were like 'training' our juniors. haha. Then me and cherie had this really dumb conversation about our gender. Lol. ou xx and xy chromosomes. Haha. Almost LMAO. lol. Okay i have been very blurr this few days. Have to catch up with my work. Have not been doing homework, cause i feel TOO sleepy to do it. Is really dead tired. Hais.

This sat NYP have open house. I feel like going. will see about it. Lol. okay i have to sleep. I know farah is like so jealous about me and xiah. haha. Can't help it, but i just love him so much. He is the best in this world. And micky loves me. Park, you amitted it in the bus with cantanise. Haha. lol. Vivien and your brother is my witness. haha. AND SHIMMY.. xiah is not having an affair, even if he have the girl is just me! haha. there is only me inhis heart. haha. jealous ehx.... haha.

6:32 AM



Sunday, January 21, 2007




Hoo. Had match with Singapore Sports school. And i guess you guys know the results right! Hais. Even though we did badly BUT we have win the next matchs i hope. PLease. I wanna win.Hopefully we can win all the next 3 matches. We have to create some cods already! WOO. Hmm. Hwaiting. PLaying with SSP is good man. They are like. What the la. Speed, stamina, strong passes, jumping, balancing and everything. Tall and tone. Haos. I am like nothing compared to them. Only that i have fats.Lol. How lame. I wnna train man. Hmm. I wanna win our next 3 matches. Hwaiting. Me and fiona have bought weights for our legs to train. Yosh. Have to fight hard for miss thia and xiah. Now is already very late and i still have not finish my homework. Hais. Very boring and i don't feel like doing anything. Sob. Now very focus on netball. I cannot concentrate on anything else. Lol. Tomorrow have a math test. ARG....

Went out with park yesterday. Lol. Went to toa payoh to buy dong bang bisket. The cashier might think that we are crazy man. And the cute thing is that she quite high. LOl. She thought that the pics are likie rain or something. Haha. Then wanted to go some where else for shopping. But the stupid rain and the time is quite late, so we stayed there. Lol. i bought a cute t shirt, watch, ear ring, ring, ear stick, necklace. I love necklaces with the pandant of a key. Very nice. I bought one of that. LOl. park bought a belt, necklace, ring... lol. We bought like 23 boxes of bisket la. haha. But love it. Yeah!! next week dong bang calender come already! Woo! love it. haha. i am so excited. But that asshole still have not give me money yet. what the la. She sucks man. Hais. Sobbbbb............. I want money!
Shall end here. Ja ne!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH XIAH JUN SU.

3:41 AM



Tuesday, January 16, 2007









WOO! jahan i have more of such pics lo. Your that one is just small case. Haha. I love them so much. They are not gays cause they have me. Plus xiah is my husband lo. haha. And i still think kwon sang woo is old haha. He really looks old.This is their way of showing love to each other for them. All the members do that. So it is quite common among them. haha. Aren't they just so cute! LOve them so much.. Haha. They are the best man.


Today was quite fine to me. Nothing much happen. Hmm. But i still have a lot of homework unfinished plus problems of wheather to drop chem or not. Lol. Give me some suggestions please. Hais. I don't even know if i still wanna become a doctor. Don't laugh first. Sound ridiculous, but lol. I want a job with a lot of money! I want the money so that i can meet my Dong bang shin ki. LOve them so much man. Haha. The bisket hui yi bought for me is super nice.(thanks park love you so much!) Then it has a very good response from those who have tried it and wants me to buy for them. Lol. Love it.Now i realise that me and hui yi have been influencing a lot of people to like dong bang shin ki. BUT! They belong to dong bang hway ki. Haha. Love it. I think we have found the last member for dong bang hway ki. It is.... Vivien! haha. She likes u-know and hero. I like the influencing of people to like them. Then they will have more and more fans. Haha. So cool. Woo. Tomorrow have to call that mickel and ask her about our pay. Hmm. Hope we can get our pay without fail. Please be a kind soul for this once. hais. If not you will really be left on the shelve FOREVER!! Hope everything works well for me. Oh ya.. My chem test today is seriously horrible! I don't know what to say. But it is like i am not talented in that part. LOl.

Netball today was okay. But the stupid rain is giving us trouble not to train properly!!! What is this lo. Hais. Every day rain rain rain. PLease i really wanna train! This time i really wanna win for miss thia before she go, xiah and this is my last year. So at least make it to the second round. Which we are like always almost almost can go in. Hais. SOB! This FRIDAY we are going to play with SINGAPORE SPORTS SCHOOL. Oh my.. its like we are so not prepared and this is kinda fast for us. WHY WHY WHY!!! Then this few days we are still going to have netball training. Prepare to run 12 rounds tomorrow if i am not wrong. LOL. Cause PE= 6 rounds. Netball= 6 rounds(if i am not wrong). Kinda deadly for me. I wanna practise my passes and stuff. Hmm. Kim, hwaiting!

OKay. Good luck to park for her CO performance tomorrow! Hwaiting park. Haha. V V V V V V V V V V V V V.
Have to sleep already. Okay this year have to really work hard for my studies as well as for netball. HWAITING! Work hars for xiah also. I LOVE YOU XIAH! WOO. JA ne! see ya guys tomorrow.

5:29 AM



Sunday, January 14, 2007








They are caught doing the same action. OH my.. so cute CUTE CUTE! haha. Love it. Found on another blog. lol. jun su and yoo chun doing the same things. haha. Sooo kawaii.

6:18 AM



Friday, January 12, 2007







guess who is he?(hint: my dearest and he only likes me)










Boo hoo! I am so down on my luck man. Its like.. slip down before netball yesteday(luckily wasn't too ugly yesterday), the stupid girls in the bus, that bitchy witch mickel still don't wanna pay me, was not able to watch goong S epi 1 pt 1, What the hell la. Hais. Wanna quicky change my luck man.

Hwaiting netball girls. Woo just love it. Haha.
About my stupid pay: When we haveing cca orientation that week she already say that she will pay us during that week. When hui yi called her, she say postpone to next week.(this week). Fine. Then we called today and guess what is her answer to hui yi? She was like saying: oh, i cannot pay you all now, but i will still pay you. What is this man. She say she don't have workers. What the la.You mean we have to get you workers in order to get our pay? Hello!! Wake up. you are suppose to be the manager and you cannot handle this kind of things? Its like making your EX workers waiting for their pay like for almost a month after we quit. Its like. What's wrong with you. Then i called her. She say we can call or msg her next wednesday. and if next wednesday she still don't give me an answer... PS: netball girls i need your help. If she don't wanna give me my pay then we all go down find her can? hee. Thanks! Who would want to work for you if this continues? Duh. A job that does not gives you your pay. PISSED!

Okay i have to clear my homework soon. oh man! haha. I think i have quite a lot to finish. Haha. Can't wait to give her her present! WOO! Just wait man. And mrs kwon(too young to be his wife) i have bough tu something too! haha.
Ja ne! See you guys around. Goong S turned out to be not so bad. Lol. The first guy who appears at the first epi is cute.

11:46 PM






OOhhh. Really hate the bitches in the bus today. I just don't really know what is wrong with them. It's like if we are really that noisy, please look around and see who is the other source of disgusting noise pollution. Look where the words come out from too. PLease lo. Unless you want to tell me that your brains don't work well enough to realise that you are actually talking too! Come on la. You mean in the whole bus only you are the VIP and have all the rights to talk? DUH.. You just turns my stomach upside down. Still thought that your school is much better than this. But to my surprise, not at all. Which made me have this once in a life time feeling that our school has better standards than you. At least we don't start saying vaugaraties at a public place just beause the other party has a louder voice than you. Can't believe this is happening. I think if park knows about this she will be like so sad. Her dream is like totally smashed. Haha. Don't ever date girls there man. It would be a nightmare. Trust me.

Today is a really short day. With only 4 subjects. Hmm. I don't really like the teaching style of the lung. Cause it is like i can really fall asleep. Plus i don't really understand what she is talking about. Partly due to me not paying attention.(i might be thinking about xiah) But her lessons are boring to me. Worse than Mrs ajit. Haha. Then the english is like really can die man. She is like tracing and tracing and tracing the paper until the whole thing is like full of pencil marks. We can't even see the words. Plus she said that question 1 is actually a gift qustion which normal people would think that it is easy. BUT she did the first question for like 45min. What is this. The gift question does not sound convincing after you explain the answer. I think i prefer miss see's teaching. ARG.. have homework on social, have to write an essay. hais.

Then is netball. Hmm. Did not run as the stupid rain is here. Then we did a lot of physical conditioning. When we are doing the first set of the stairs i already drop dead.LoL. We have to run up and down the stairs 3 times continuously which is counted as a set. Oh my.. so tiring. Then some ball handling. I don't think we did much. But the stuff is lethal. Haha. OKay.. Here comes our North zone schools which we are competing against: SPORTS SCHOOL, NORTH VISTA, PUNGGOL and FUCHUN. It is quite dishearting. Lol. Looking at the schools we are going to play with. Its like. Must well don't play. BUT! Because of this i really need to run run run until i am dead. So that we can win. I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna win all the games. Please! At least let us qualify for the second round! PLease. I will do what i can. NETBALL WOOSH! I really hope that i can win since this is our last year, plus our dear miss thia is leaving. I want her to have the trophy. Hope she don't leave so early.
After netball went to retrive something from the dong bang shop. Lol. Fun man. There are new stocks! WOO! so happy. bought something for kwon, park and shim. haha. Cherie was with me. Lol. Oh yes!! Ballooon poster is coming next week. Yippy. Love it. But there is only one. haha. it is like so rare la. I think i will let park have it first because i think she is very excited about it. lol. Then shim bought one dong bang book which could have been mine if i am able to persuade her not to buy. Which apparently i failed. Lol. she bought the book and chang min poster. She left it with me. haha. Thank you so much man. For lending me. haha. I don't think you counted the pages right?? haha. LOl. later all the xiah page is missing. haha. The chang min poster she bought is really super nice. haha. I hope more dong bang stuff comes in and i can grab it all back home. Woo. Love it. My xiah is like forever the best la. Haha.

I am now waiting for farah to be online. haha. okay. shall end here! Ja ne. I have to go and reflect about shouting at those childish ass. They are like kids to me. Lol. Metally not fully developed properly. So i am creating a sin for shouting at kids. Haha. Talking to them is wasting of time. So i shall not think about it anymore. Least i dream of that disgusting face and voice.. (a shiver down my spine)haha.
Lastly,hope bell is fine now. Get well soon after that fall man. Netball girls is always prone to accidents before the comeptition. Sad! Guess this is some kind of curse.

6:32 AM



Wednesday, January 10, 2007



Yo. Days pass kinda fast. Oh my.. my weight is like. SHIt SHit Shit. Sob what to do? Can someone tell me how to slim down fast. Had taken my height and weight today during PE. Terrible man. I want to have aneroxic. Haha. Sounds crazy ehx? Then now we start to run like only 2 rounds. I bet the teacher don't know netball girls have to run 6 rounds. Lol. so we did not run today. But the 2 rounds is still very tiring. Had not been running for a long time. Then we play captain/netball. Haha.
I can' t really stand our chinese techer man. He is like... they say he look like Mr bean. Lol. Then is like he tell us he have wife and girlfriend at the same time. What the la. haha. Can't stand him lo. PLus he likes to laugh at things that are not funny at all. Oh my... Shall end here. I very sleepy and haven finish up my homework. See ya tomorrow man. This friday have netball. HAve to run again. Slim down hwaiting! Woo!

Ja ne! I miss XIAH! He rocks man. They having concert in malaysia la. Whta is this!! Why he don't wanna come Singapore. Haha. Must be park tai to scary then they don't want come. Haha. All your fault park tai. You agree with me right shim yau yau? haha

4:18 AM






Yo. Days pass kinda fast. Oh my.. my weight is like. SHIt SHit Shit. Sob what to do? Can someone tell me how to slim down fast. Had taken my height and weight today during PE. Terrible man. I want to have aneroxic. Haha. Sounds crazy ehx? Then now we start to run like only 2 rounds. I bet the teacher don't know netball girls have to run 6 rounds. Lol. so we did not run today. But the 2 rounds is still very tiring. Had not been running for a long time. Then we play captain/netball. Haha.
I can' t really stand our chinese techer man. He is like... they say he look like Mr bean. Lol. Then is like he tell us he have wife and girlfriend at the same time. What the la. haha. Can't stand him lo. PLus he likes to laugh at things that are not funny at all. Oh my... Shall end here. I very sleepy and haven finish up my homework. See ya tomorrow man. This friday have netball. HAve to run again. Slim down hwaiting! Woo!

Ja ne! I miss XIAH! He rocks man. They having concert in malaysia la. Whta is this!! Why he don't wanna come Singapore. Haha. Must be park tai to scary then they don't want come. Haha. All your fault park tai. You agree with me right shim yau yau? haha

4:18 AM



Monday, January 08, 2007



I am back. WOo! school reopen. OH i miss my xiah. He is the best man! Hmmm. The opening days were fun fun and more fun. Went out with park, jia ning and cherie. lOl. had loads of fun man. I am like so crazy. Laughing through out. Hyper high. haha. Then went out to check out some stuffs. Bought a nike bag finally. My first 1. Woo hoo. Sounds so shua gu. haha. But no choice i am so poor man. Then went to quite a no. of places.

TO SHIM: i bought u something which i think you will like at the dong bang shop. LOl. Wanted to pass to nana but i forgot. lol. maybe pass to her tomorrow. Excited aren't you. Haha.

Then we went to taka and cini. Saw 1 bag which i like too. So nice man the texture. I am having this crazy laugh. haha. which i think cherie does not like it. LOl. Went out with the same bunch of womens to look for cherie's bag. Then was like what she predicted came true. She bought nothing. there is just not a thing that suits her. Lol. Hmm. Then went to the biggest popular. It is so cool man. But was not able to buy the korean book i wanted. Next time then. But i bought a story book, assesments and cardboards for my mom. OH oH oh, so shitty la. My bag have the crease already!! So pissed. Eventhought they say is like that one i still don't like it. Lol. That bithcy witch say she wanted to pay us last week but not even a single cent from her. She better pay us this week man. The wait is like.... Oh my. I want her to pay me in full. Don;t want half half again. I have nothing more to do with her. So shitty man. I need money.

I got my bursary. $250. after planning i find that i can save not even a cent. Lol. Sob. Hwaiting kim! Start to study and revise. this year is chong chong year. Woo.

Just chatted with the dong bang shin ki fan. She like xiah too. But lol. Too bad he is mine. haha. -_-'''. But this fan is quite crazy, she bought like all the versions of the album except 1. That was like. And i think she already have the calander.WOo. But she tell me she started liking them only this year. Which means i like them longer. haha.

ARG.. heard this news. Jaejoong and micky had car accident due to the crazy fans chasing after them. The fas still blame them for reckless driving i think. What is this la. Its like sometimes give them some space. They are humans too. They need their own free time and not always tied down by the fans. They will go mad if that's the case. kin-cha-na-yoh? hope you are fine. Get well soon man. How i wish i can fly there to see them. OHHHH... haha.

Shall end here. Ja ne!
Hey! Girl.

2:30 AM



Wednesday, January 03, 2007



Hallo. haha. Today is my first day back to school. Super boring. We were chatting about of holiday stuffs. Hai. Why are they always doing the same thing on the first day of school? Its like can really fall asleep in the hall man. Then that is what we did mostly. Visit the hall and class room only. Most of the things we did is crap. Haha. Then hai. I am so tired now. Ottoke. Don't really feel like studing. Can't really handle the pressure this year!

Yippy! 1 good news from hui yi today! Hahaha. She ask her sis to help call the mich. Then she say she will give our pay by this week. WOO HOO. Love it. Finally. I want my pay man. Yippy. Pay plus bursary. I want buy my brown pink nike bag. I don't care man, i will search every where for it. Haha. Really like it. It is so nice! I hope i can find it man. haha. I want buy clothes. Not sure total i will have how much but kinda excited when i hear it man.. haha. hmm..

sad thing also for today. Heard the news that miss this is leaving..OH NO!!! hai. But there is nothing much i think we can do. Cos i think she is quite determine. And i really hope she can do well. SOb. then there will be 1 less teacher caring for us. I think she is the best teacher in this whole school that i ever know. Love her so much man. Just hope that she don't leave so early. I wanna train hard and get a trophy for her. SERANGOON NETBALL GIRLS HWAITING! We can go it man. Even if she cannot watch us play, but if we win she can be happy for us. And i wanna get her something before she leave. And that will be like 2 years later before we can get to see her again. Sob. Okay. Will work hard for it man. Going to sleep soon. Nitex
Ja ne! Xiah rocks my world man!

6:30 AM